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Entry for August 23, 2008

xsuv1 — Sat, 23 Aug 2008 05:29:44 +0000

to all of you that i have in some way hurt…

i am sorry.

Entry for April 19, 2008

xsuv1 — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 09:06:06 +0000

just feeling used again. seems to happen a lot lately.

viruses, spyware, and other comments on the crewel, crewel joke

xsuv1 — Sat, 29 Mar 2008 17:56:01 +0000

As I sit here eating chips ahoy cookies and running every virus and spyware scan known to the modern world, I realize how vulnerable one may become.

First off, I really don’t like chips ahoy that much. Faith had me buy them. So why do I soak them in milk until they become so soogy that they fall apart in my super 44 oz styrofoam cup from yesterday’s iced tea from the gas station, and then struggle to attempt to get them to my mouth before soggy bits fall to the carpet that already smells like sour milk? Am I that vulnerable to ads of chips ahoy, or is it just Faith’s persuasion? She didn’t like them that terribly much once we got them home either. We are all suckers in some way I guess.

I must mention here that the crewel, crewel joke has not really been addressed yet. The lyrics from the Blue October song were inserted there as I did not have the muse to elaborate on the subject at the time. Actually, the lyrics seemed somewhat appropriate, but the realmessage can only be found in the live version of the song with the line, “It started… and then it ended… wioth ONE BIG LIE”. I do so wish that I knew how to add a clip of that here.

OH SHIT>>>

WAIT>>>

After weeks of fretting, I just discovered an amazing, but not suprising item in my scan results.

Will be back soon.

a crewel crewel joke

xsuv1 — Sat, 22 Mar 2008 02:02:31 +0000

it started… and then it ended… with ONE BIG LIE

I’m sorry for the way I treated you
I’m too stuck in my ways to just run
In the opposite way when things get comfortable
I’ll keep on licking till your flavor is gone

(Chorus) It’s getting more impossible
To keep a straight face
And be trusted with
I love you

Don’t trust my words when I’m in the bed with you
I’ll bring the message, but the message gets lost
Yeah you opened your legs and maybe
I promised you
You didin’t notice that my ankles were crossed

(Chorus)

Can you show me how to treat someone?
I don’t recall ever learning how
Because I keep fucking up
I keep fucking up

Blue October

of the night

xsuv1 — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 18:43:29 +0000

she came in and of the night. by and of the dark she consumed as she was consumed. the crash of lightening and the rolling of thunder spoke of her pain and that which she was to bring. it was not by malice or intention or purpose. it was just to be. the excitement contradicted the pain. questions echoed to and from the forbidding clouds, but answers were masked by the torrential showers of dark crimson. still there was the excitement. if only it were day. if only there was warmth of sun. if only there were answers, but…

she came in and of the night. by and of the the dark she consumed as she was consumed.

teaser

xsuv1 — Sat, 16 Feb 2008 06:11:21 +0000

the messed up little boy 40 years of age, can’t find himself, can’t lose his rage.

the messed up little kid, 45 years old, can’t feel the warmth, sits alone and cold…

Time for a smile

xsuv1 — Sun, 27 Jan 2008 07:27:31 +0000

I borrowed this from a friend. It made me smile when i really needed it.

http://www.biertijd.com/mediaplayer/?itemid=3076

Entry for January 24, 2008

xsuv1 — Thu, 24 Jan 2008 18:10:38 +0000

ok…try this one

http://www.ifc.com/series?aId=21510&bcpid=1243698358&bclid=1274003048&bctid=1…

repost for those still coming here

xsuv1 — Wed, 23 Jan 2008 22:23:06 +0000

your mom wants you to stop reading this crap

you really should not be reading this. there is no good reason that you should. don’t waste your time. you are not gonna find any answers here. maybe a few more questions…maybe hundreds of questions. you don’t want to know the answers to those questions even if they were here.

you are not going to know me any better by reading this. you may think you will. you may think you do, but you just won’t get it. there are those that have read me and think they understand. comments like “bitter” and “negative” just go to show that you haven’t a clue. i believe that i have addressed that already.

if you truly do understand, then you must stop reading this garbage immediately. your understanding would indicate that you have been there and/or are there now. if this is the case, then what you read can surely not help your situation. it would be terribly unsafe and unhealthy for you to continue to indulge in these ramblings.

if you still believe that you have any good reason to even come to this page, then think again. think real hard. do you really have nothing better to do with your time? if so, then let me know. i will be more than happy to tell you more reasons why you should…

STOP READING THIS SHIT.

it’s gone

xsuv1 — Thu, 31 May 2007 20:37:33 +0000

“it’s gone”
i sat here thinking about these words and the thoughts they invoked and the subsequent feelings. at the time this seemed to be an extremely power combination of words. “gone” itself, in the right (wrong) context, can pack one hell of a whallop.
anyway, i felt compelled to reflect on this phrase and chose to attempt to share some of these reflections. as it seems to be quite common now, i have not been able to adequately express the thoughts and emotions triggered by these words. perhaps if you just take a few seconds to reflect on this topic you may be able to get a glimpse of what i saw. if so, perhaps you would like to share.

it’s gone